ഹൃദയത്തിന്‍റെ ഡയറിക്കുറിപ്പ്‌ [മന്ദന്‍ രാജാ]

N¼nNp«³.sWäv hm_v WX¯msS Ak^mSw BNnÃtÃm ‘
“” Wnt¶mtXm¶pw b_ªn«v Nm^yfnà …: fmSyp sfm´]psfXp¯p ko«nt`¡v WX¶p …
C¶nWn b\n sl^n]mk¯nÃ… AXp ¡a¸p_s¯ k`n] Xm¦n`v Wn¶v skÅsfXp¯p S`]nt`mjn¨p A]mav IqXv lfn¸n¨p …
sskNn«v bSnkv tbms` Xnkn]n`v Wyqhpw sk¨v ^s*®w bnXn¸nt¨m*v C^n¡pt¼mjm\v tcm\v sdÃXn¨Sv .
“” A¸¨m MmWm hvs_à ..””
“” F´m tfmsa kntlgw ? bntÅs^¶m FXp¡p¶p “”
“” Hm .. sfmssd`n`v Ft´m sP]nw Nan]m … A¸¨Wv F¶m D*v kntlgw ? H¯n^n Wmam]tÃm F¶v N^pSn knan¨Sm “”
“” kntlgtfm¶pfnà ..Wn§anWn F¶m Wm«nt`¡v ?’
“” tKmKn¡v `okv Nn«n]m`v k^t\m¶p*v .. bns¶ Wm`p tb^v k^pt¼mjpw In`ksà ..””
“” Òvfw .””
“” A¸¨Wv Du\v Njnt¨m ?””
“” Njn¡mWv SpX§p¶p “”
“” A¸¨m … tKmKosX S_kmXv sg]^v B¡n … tKmKn¡v B]n^p¶p S_kmXv Nnt«*n]n^p¶Sv…A¸¨W_n]mtÃm f½]pfm]n MmWv tI^nÃm¶p … ASv sNm*v fq¯tI«Wm\v S_kmXv … At§^Sv knän«v dw¥q^v shän`mNmWm b^nbmXn ,…. fs½tWw At§m«v sNm*v tbm]m`v fSn]tÃm .””
“” Òvfw .””
“” AS_nªt¸m fpS`v tKmKn]msN h¦X¯n`m …. Bim^w tbm`pw sl^n¡v Njn¡p¶nà “”
“” Òvfw …F¦n bns¶ …AkW{S h¦Xw Bt\`v t{Phns] Wn§sX NqsX Wn^v¯mWv b_]v “”
“” sÈm ..ASà A¸¨m ….. S_kmXv tbmNp¶ Nm^y¯n`v …. tKmKn Nan¨p ka^v¶ koXtà ssNkn«p tbmNpt¼m h¦Xw Nm\m Sn^n¡ptfm ?’
“” F¶m bns¶ AktWmXv km§mWv b_]v “”
‘ AsS§Wm A¸¨m …. Cu]nsX]tà CknsXs]m^p koXv FXpt¯ ..tKmKosX Gäkpw k`n] B{Piw B]n^p¶p CknsXs]m^p koXv “”
‘ Òvfw .. Aksâ sg]^v CsÃXn tfmsa ..ASv sNmXpt¯m Asæn`v ssNfmäw sI]vtSm km§mWv b_]v””
“” ASpw Bt`mIn¨Sm A¸¨m …. Ak^v k`y S_km«pNm^tÃ? knäm`v S_kmXnWp tfmlw Asöp ?’
“” As¸m bns¶ tI«Wv S_kmXv kn¡p¶tSm ?’
“” ASv bns¶ At§^v¡v kÃSpw tWm¡mWpt*m … tW^s¯ fpSt` dw¥q^v Asà ..tKmKo]tà Wm«n`v Wns¶ … As¸m Øt`mw S_kmXpw Hs¡ knäm`v tKmKn¡tà Wm\s¡Xv …S_kmXv £]n¨p Fs¶ms¡ Wm«pNm^v b_]q¶pw b_ªp .. BsN h¦Xs¸«p tKmKn bNpSn]m]n ..Bim^w tbm`pw tk* “”
Òvfw … AktWmXp h¦Xs¸XmsS C^n¡mWv b_]v ..tks_ F¶m Ds*Xn tfmsa ?
‘ tks_s]m¶pfnà A¸¨m … A¸¨Wv ..””
“” tdmdnt]m doWt]m ftäm knant¨m Wns¶ ?’
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