ഹൃദയത്തിന്‍റെ ഡയറിക്കുറിപ്പ്‌ [മന്ദന്‍ രാജാ]

N¼nNp«³.sWäv …Wnsâ b_¨n`v tN«m tSm¶pw MmWv fp«n Wn¡pkm¶v””
“” A§sW MmWv b_]ptfm ?’ ‘ fpOw k{Nn¨p fin]]msa Nan]m¡n …
“” CtS ks^ tb^ptUmgsfm¶pw MmWv tNav¸n¨n«nà … CWn tNav¸n¡mWpw Dt±lfnà ..””
“” Rm …ASm Mm¼_tª …Fsâ NqsX tbms^s]¶v …””
“” tbmXm …. hvtWifnÃm¯ l^o^¯nWv frStUi¯nsâ kn`]m … sNmXp¡p¶ NmlnWp tk*n In`kavfm^v sN«nbnXnt¡w fäpw sI¿pw ….b\n Njnªm fqXpw S«n Hä tbm¡pw sI¿pw … bt* FWn¡§sW H¶pw tSm¶n]n«nà …. Nq«pNm^v b*v fpwssd]n`pw fäpw tbmNpt¼mjpw MmWv A§sW ….. hqh¶ B]n^ps¶sâ fWhn`v …’ fmSypknsâ lЯnWp N«n Np_ªt¸mav fin ANt¯¡v N]_n A]msa sN«nbnXn¨p.
“” F¶m hmt_ CSv …… FÃm^pw b_ªStà H¶v NqXn sN«mWv …. “”
“” ipw …Cu k]hmWv Nm`¯v ..Wo H¶v tbmXm¸m …””
fins] b_ªp kn«n«p fmSyp b_¼ns`¡n_§n ….Sq¼m sNm*vBªp fq¶m`v Nnas]Xp¯t¸mav A]mavs¡m^p Blzmhfm]n. F¶m`v ASn`pw k`ns]m^p Np^nlm]n^p¶p A]msa Nm¯n^p¶Sv ..
AXp¡a]ns` b\nNtamSp¡n KmWNn fmSypknsâ AXpt¯¡v k¶p .
NªnskÅw …D¸nSv fSnt]m¶v tWm¡n]ms« hmt_ …”” Sq¼]ns` f®v H^p fX¡` HXn¨p kr¯n]m¡ns¡m*n^p¶ fmSyp Aksa tWm¡n]t¸mav sM«n . ssN`n]pw cpav s»uhpw B]n ko«nt`¡v tbm] KmWNn Sn^n¨p k¶Sv hm^ns»uhpw C«p … C_pNn bnXn¨p NnX¡p¶ AkapsX s»uhn`v sNmÅm¯ F®sfjp¡pÅ fp`Nav .. Ak bmSn]pw skan]n`m\v SmWpw .Wmt`m At©m ip¡pÅ s»uhnWv BsN ]nt¸mav fqs¶®tf DÅq … {dm]pw AN¯nïSv Nm^\w fp`]ns` fmwhw bn¶pNav¡v CX]n`qsX skan]nt`¡v sS_n¨p Wn`v¡p¶p … KmWNn ssN`n fX¡n¡p¯n A]mapsX fp¶n`pÅ Na b_n¡mWv SpX§n]t¸mav fmSyp Aksa kj¡v b_ªp .
“” Wo F¶m KmWNn … Ct{Sw tW^w k`y s»uhv B]n^p¶tÃm ..Cs¸m NpªSmt]m …””
“” Hm ..Fsâ hms_ …. ASn]msâ ssN S«n Im] sfm¯w ASn`m]n …C¶tÃym H¶v tSm^vs¶ … Cu fj]¯v A`¡n]n«sSÃmw D\§ptkm? HsÅ`v btj H^p s»uhnt«m*v C§p tbm¶p “” KmWNn A]msa tWm¡msS b\n SpX^v¶v .
“” sNm¨p fmSyp ko*pw bq^v\ØnSn]ns`¯n]n^p¶p . ^mkns` sI_n] sb^p¶mav B]n^pt¶`v Cs¸m k`ysb^p¶mav B\tÃm F¶]mav Hm^v¯p sNm*v D¸n« NªnskÅwfXfXm¶p NpXn¨n_¡n .
‘ F¶m`pw KmWNn … ktÃm^pw N*m`v F¶m b_]pw … Wot]m¶mt`mInt¨ ..””
‘ktÃm^pw N*m Ab^mVw b_]pfm]n^n¡pw …. Ak^v b_ªm`pw N¼nNp«³.sWäv